Dear self, I wanted to take a minute to tell you happy mothers day. I know you will hear it a hundred times today but I wanted to be the first to say it. I wanted to tell you, that whether you know it or not … you’re doing a great job. Even though it might not always feel like it, your kids are happy. That even though you’re constantly looking for reassurance and gratitude from others, you don’t need it. You don’t need it because I see you.
I see the way you’re constantly juggling tiny humans while trying to be a good wife. I see the way you spend your mornings rushing through your shower because there are tiny hands pounding at the glass door. The way you spend your days on the floor playing with babies. The way you spend your evenings making several meals that will make everyone happy. I see the meal planning, the grocery shopping, the endless amounts of laundry and chores you do when no one else is around. I see the self-sacrifice and the struggle just to make it through the day sometimes.
Your kids are too little to tell you but, they love you. You can see it in their smiles, in their laughs. Because of you, they will be kind, compassionate, and strong. That even though sometimes it feels like you can’t make them happy, they are. They’re happy because they’re safe, loved, cared for. They’re happy because they have you. They have a mom.
Your husband who has been by your side for fifteen years, he sees it too. He appreciates the long hours you spend tending to fussy babies. He knows you’re the last to go to bed most nights because you’re prepping the house for tomorrow’s adventures. The effort you put into your everyday appearance and health, he sees it and he admires it. He knows you spend some nights frustrated and in tears and yelling at everyone for no reason, but he loves you through it. Two pregnancies and two births, he’s been by your side helping you through it. Because of you, you’ve given him two of the greatest gifts in the world, and he thanks you for it.
So not just because its Mother’s Day, but because you are a mother. And “mommin’ ain’t easy.” I want you to know … I see you, I admire you, and I thank you.